Loving Yourself...Truly the Greatest Love of All ...

     Learning to love and accept yourself can be hard. Trust me when I say it's easier said than done. I think everyone assumes you love yourself. You find out during those tough times when you have only yourself to depend on. It's a process. It takes maturity and accepting You for who You are-flaws and all, what you stand for, where you are in life and where you're going. It takes being honest with yourself. It's realizing that despite some mistakes you are still fabulous.
   I remember a time in my life when I wasn't too happy with me. I didn't like my circumstances, how I looked, where I was headed in life. I just was not happy and my situation didn't help. I found myself falling into a depression. I didn't want to be seen, I didn't want to get dressed, I was just down.
   My godmom gave me an assignment. She said "Nesha, I want you to stand in the mirror everyday and say I love you and you are beautiful." I hesitated on doing it. I thought it was kind of silly. The first time I did it I found myself breaking down. I cried looking at me. It's like every emotion I was feeling came at me at once. I realized in that moment that I was sacrificing my happiness for someone else.
   I did not like who and what I saw looking back at me. She looked sad, tired, emotionless, drained and just unhappy. But also in that moment I realized it was time for change and not just for me but for my children. They needed to see me smile more. A happy mom is always a better mom! How could I be at my best for them if I wasn't happy with myself? I did this "assignment" daily. The first week was the hardest. I repeated those words through my tears "Nesha you I love you and you Are beautiful." I would say them a couple times a night. Slowly I start to believe what I was saying. My confidence came back, I started to smile more, laugh, get dressed...It's like I came out of my shell. I started to become comfortable with me again. People were noticing they started to comment that I seemed different, happier, more assured. And that's exactly what I felt! Today, I LOVE ME some ME!!! LOL! I'm serious though. There are areas where I could improve/need work. But overall I am happy with me. I'm proud of where I'm at and happier about where I'm going. The "Nesha" you see today is one who accepts herself (flaws and all) and is on a journey to really find myself. I've learned that Whitney said it best when she sung that "Loving yourself is the greatest love of all". Loving yourself teacehes you how to love others. It teaches you that despite those that try to take you down you can overcome. It teaches you to set standards, have morals, set goals and learn to not only live but to Enjoy life. Learning to love yourself is a process. It can be an emotional ride but it's a ride that needs to be taken. Loving yourself helps you get to that place of living a purposeful life and realizing you're worth it and you deserve it. Why you may ask? We were ALL meant to live a Fabulous life...so let's live it!!! P.S This post is very personal and near and dear to me. It was hard writing it and harder publishing it so I hope you take what I'm saying serious and if you need to do the assignment it may help you! Ladies, I enjoy this blog and reaching out and sharing what I've been through but I also want to hear from you so feel free to comment and please everyone go and like my new page on facebook at www.facebook.com/womenin3D Thanks you ALL for the support!!! xoxo NESHA